I'm so fucking exhausted, I hate how my life is turning out. I can't even enjoy art without getting reminded of pain. Fuck this, fuck everybody, everything that's been created by me, was it worth it? Don't know anymore. What's the point, everyday feels irritating, nothing changes, I don't feel embarrassed for posting this. Just anger, fear, and regret. I can't handle it anymore.

But I don't wanna lose, I'm tired of crying. I just want rest, but that's too much to ask huh? Everything hurts, but I cant loose, I have to keep pushing. I'm not letting them win, I'm not. Don't ask what's wrong, I won't answer