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I'm so fucking exhausted, I hate how my life is turning out. I can't even enjoy art without getting reminded of pain. Fuck this, fuck everybody, everything that's been created by me, was it worth it? Don't know anymore. What's the point, everyday feels irritating, nothing changes, I don't feel embarrassed for posting this. Just anger, fear, and regret. I can't handle it anymore.

But I don't wanna lose, I'm tired of crying. I just want rest, but that's too much to ask huh? Everything hurts, but I cant loose, I have to keep pushing. I'm not letting them win, I'm not. Don't ask what's wrong, I won't answer

"I remember the awful days where my parents argue at the worst times, not to say it stop entirely, but everytime they're in the same room it feels like a flame is about to go off. I just want my family to be normal again."- Abigail Valdrez

I always liked the deserts in Sonora, feels like the desert has a personality that I always wanted to visit

So the reason why I post two different versions of Hanna was due to her story.

(Btw this is gonna be long so strap up if youre interested. )

Hanna is a creative girl, she loves to craft outfits and one day she wants to become a fashion designer. Hanna is very particular about 1920s fashion, she'll often makes videos about her designs and crafts. While at an amateur level, she's very passionate about her work, and rather helpful to her peers. Hanna can be very funny at times and she's often interactive.

Not everything is fine and danty though, when she's under pressure she'll have to push her limits like eating less and staying up late to do work, school work that is. Due to all the school pressure she can get very nervous, and overthinks about her present actions. Even when she's suppose to relax she can't help but loose it and have a panic attack because of what her grades will be. It doesn't help that her classmates harass her for wearing such old fashion clothing, making sexist remarks such as "Women don't talk about their opinions remember?" Or "I wish we could go back to the old days where girls shut up"

With the combination of bullying and school work Hanna feels like she can't make anyone satisfied and thinks she's not good enough. Becoming insecure about her work and comparing her skills to others.With that in mind, Hanna likes to draw characters in a rubberhose style as escapism, the "Gray Hanna" is her insert and she can embrace herself in her art without worry.

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